
Since my first breath of the Parisian city odor, that rugged, nose-hair-raising smell found in all seasoned cities of the world, combined with ubiquitous cigarette smoke and the unwavering aroma of freshly baked croissants and cafe au laits, the romantic city seems to have not changed. Well not as much as me.


Young purity has been replaced by won and lost love; mornings after too many glasses; a plethora of mentors; celebrations, grievances and boundary pushing, leaving an immutable yearning only to uncover more.
Then - I was a solid suburban prep school fourteen itching to take on the world.
Now - it's near fifteen years later.

In the 2004
Before Sunset flick, Jesse (Ethan Hawke) and Celine (Julie Delpy) review their experiences in life walking together over and through the well-worn streets of Paris [nine years after meeting on a train in Europe and sharing a few life-branding hours with one another in
Before Sunrise]. Like Jesse, I walked modern Paris with seasoned bright eyes and now as a published author. And while I wasn’t revisiting the streets arm-in-arm with a lost and re-found lover, it was refreshing to review the City of Love again with my galfriend who was taking in its unique pulse for the first time.

I've covered many of the city’s cobblestones with various soles over the years. My memories of past times spent there excited me as much as uncovering new in the same place.

Still, my soul fluttered most each time the brain recognized a garden, a steeple, cafe, or antique store sign through my older, still green eyes that have taken-in and analyzed aspects of life much more since then. So many memories shaken free from times that feel like so long ago.


It was an abnormally warm high 70s at the end of September 2011. The city was still buzzing from Fashion Week and all the locals flashed still summer golden skin in Jardin des Tuileries, lounging around the triangle surrounded waters of the Louvre or perched on the
Pont des Arts bridge filled with lover’s locks.



The view from atop the Tour Eiffel remains the same, a piece in my life as sturdy as the wrought iron it's constructed of.

Daffodils are one of my favorite flowers since a semi-overcast Paris spring day in 2005. Having a wander on my own, I followed the blurred line of locals carrying the vibrant yellow bouquets of flowers that lit up the neighborhood, heralding the sun's rays. They led me to a quaint market where I happily purchased two bunches to liven-up the hostel room, an easy spot on the fifth floor offering a glimpse of the sparkling top of Eiffel.
Beans & Barley had some beckoning me in their water filled tubs this weekend. Now the smell of spring lightens the air of my bedroom at home, the vibrant flowers perched on my dresser beside a street purchased painting of a sunsetting sky mirrored in the river Seine.
Until next time, you saccharine city. Merci beaucoup for helping this American girl recall a few bittersweet pieces of what's become the modern me.
Below is a friend and I on the 4th of July, 1997. The portrait up top was done the same day in Montmartre. Believe me, messy pigtails were very hip then. Note my red, white and blue, including my
Docs.

My first City of Love sunset in ninety-seven from a boat in the river Seine.